The pastor declared that this the first real Sunday of 2012 because there were so few people in church last week (New Years Day). He a prayer of thanksgiving for the blessings we had been given in 2011 and remembering the "saints" that had passed. This reminded me that today would have been Natasha's 26th birthday.
We then prayed for 2012. I was thinking about where my mind was last year. I was grateful 2010 was over and I had high hopes for 2011. Ironically, 2010 is the good old days and 2011 was the year that everything went black.
2010 was a hard year, and I was exhausted at the end of it. But I had been able to turn to God for comfort. There scary times, but I felt Jesus was with me during them.
She told me that when I was ill, I had "turned my face to God." Now she sees me sitting alone in a room, my back to the wall, face buried in my arms, refusing to look up and see Jesus.
Our anthem song that morning was “He Leadeth me,” another favorite of mine.
When by Thy grace the vict'ry's won,