Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Sunday, April 14, 2013
I've been so busy trying to get this stuff done that I forgot it wasn't that long ago I couldn't do them.
The bill for this physical activity has been coming at night, when the cramps and spasms. Poor Adrienne, the other night she woke up to me pleading, "Help me!"
It is easy to think that being pain-free is a right, when it is really a privilege. Same for mowing the lawn and the other things I mentioned in the first paragraph. I love that I can do these things, including having a rough, painful night without narcotics.
I feel so good right now.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
On the plus side, I am feeling much better now, thank you.
Three years ago (yesterday) was the last time I worked and the first time I was hospitalized with CIDP. I hardly think about those days any longer, other than to be grateful they are behind me.
I celebrated by buying some clothes online this morning. Because, evidently, it has been more than three years since I bought any new clothes.
Did I mention I have begun looking for work?
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
I am doing this in the back of a moving car, on my phone so it is not going to be pretty.
We are taking Matt and Mercedes to the airport for their trip back to Vermont. Their 10 day visit was really good and all concerned are sad to see it end.
Last night Matt told us that he is seriously considering accepting our offer to move in with us. That would be awesome. I am sure part of that is because he wants to use the amazing workshop he created in the garage.
Picture to follow of that.
We spent the Christmas Eve and Day hunkered down in our grinch cave, wishing that time would pass faster. Gratefully, there were meetings for us to attend.
But when Matt and Mercedes showed up, it really felt like Christmas. That feeling continued throughout their visit because everyday we got to open a present.
Sunday, December 23, 2012
There has been much that I have learned in the last 60 days, but I am still having trouble organizing my thoughts.
I guess the biggest thing I have learned is that "My worst day clean and sober is better than my best day using" is not such a cliche after all. I had a shit ton of great times being high and doing cool stuff. But, even at the very best of those times, I knew my search for the BBB would begin again.
BBB stands for Bigger, Better Buzz. Even my best times, what ever they were, I was worrying about the good feeling ending and what I could do to prolong it, recreate it or make it better.
I am glad to be free of that. It is freeing to be here, now and not thinking about what I need to put into my body to improve this moment or make future ones better.
The other day I found a picture of Eloise as a puppy. Her ears are sticking up and she has this really goofy grin on her face..At the bottom, I wrote "Right this moment, I am happy."
|Eloise is my personal clown-dog|
Friday, November 23, 2012
30 days since my last drug. Woo Hoo!