November 30, 2011

I went to an Alan-non meeting last night on willingness, as is being willing to change.  It was a great example of hearing what I needed to hear. I realized it was a vocabulary thing; I kept saying "I," as in "I can do it," or "I am fine."  when I would be better off saying "Help me," "Forgive me," or "make me a better man."

I guess I am back to step one, realizing I am powerless.

Thanksgiving, 2011

Adrienne and I got back from Vermont this afternoon and I am really knocked out.  I slept a lot while we were gone and I imagine the pattern will continue for the next couple of days.  But if I had to name one thing I was thankful for, it would be Thanksgiving in Springfield, Vermont with some of our oldest and dearest friends.  Andrea and Mark are the kind of people that define the phrase "good friend."

And we got to see Mercedes.  what a treat that was.

A Simple test

I discoivered a great test to find out if I am being listened to; If the person speaking to me continues to talk after I have told them I agree with them, they have not been listening to me.  I asked my new doctor for a percocet refill, he agreed.  When I told him my last doctor had wrote a 90 day prescription, he freaked out and began to lecture me on why he refused to do that.  I never asked for a 90 day supply, my old doctor gave it to me and being new to the community of prescription narcotics consumers, I thought nothing of it.  I certainly don't have a problem with doing it monthly and I told this guy that, but he continued to lecture me about the inapropriateness of asking for a 90  day prescription.

And when all was said and done, he doubled my dosage.  What a jack ass.